My Heart and Soul

What are Friends?..

2005-08-15T09:52:00.000-07:00

My friend and I were discussing on quite an interesting topic..What are friends?..He was complaining to me that the only times that friends really needed him is when they have problems..They come to us with their troubles hoping that we help to solve their problems..I personally do not have any problems witht his..In fact i feel proud of the fact that they feel that i can help them with their problem..I am happy of that fact..But after i help them get along with their life..encourage them..accompany them..lend them a shoulder..They just shrug you off after they are able to overcome the problem..then what are we?..part time friends?..is this what you call friendship?..after all we've done for you..do we deserve this?..I don't think so..i will still gladly help anyone who needs it..but i hope that u will not forget all that we've done..and cast off like some disposable underwear..

Another uneventful day.....

2005-07-26T10:23:00.000-07:00

I did almost nothing today..except the daily routine of work,eat and sleep..but there was some good news for me..the commandant of CDDB said that he might want to pull me into ADMIN site..i was so happy at the news man..i could work office hours and be free on sat and sun!!!..moreover i can gain two off every month!!!..i can ord so much faster!!!!..hahaha..

i need a girlfriend..can someone introduce me to a chinese girl?..i want to love someone..

I wanna go back to skool!!!..

2005-07-25T10:53:00.000-07:00

School..something i dreaded when i was an immature 16 year old brat..but after i started NS..I began to realize just how fun and enjoyable school is..I am not trying to say that NS is torturing..It's just that I can be more of myself when I am not working..I am looking after immature 21 year olds who just seem to want to skip NS everytime..because of that they are sent to the Detention Barracks..Life is totally damn bloody bored in there..I can't seem to be able to mix very well with my colleagues..I mean the only thing they seem to talk about is clubbing and drinking..I want to try these things so that i can socialize but I realize that It will be bad for me..haizzz..

That's why I want to go back to school!!!!..When in school..I can make so many new friends and be my old crazy and shameless self..I just can't wait to start my term at NTU in 2007..Life will be so great!!..

Secondary skool held some very important memories for me..It was where I had the strongest infatuation i've ever experienced..It was with this girl called Sofinah..she was two years older than me..I loved her very much..And I very much like to think that till today the feeling still lingers in my heart..I chased after her from sec1 to sec3..it was love at first sight for me..it was hate at first sight for her..i was very rowdy then and my first impression wasn't good..but the musical production Oklahoma organised by my school gave me a huge chance to case after her as she was in it too..It was the best time of my life..I went after her at full throttle even though she had a boyfriend..I bought her flowers..a silver necklace..Once I even bought her a teddy bear when she hinted to me that there was this teddy bear she liked..I ran all the way to northpoint to get it for her..haha..stupid me..She told me that she liked me..but i guess i was too young..She was at a totaly different level..haha..but the best moment was during backstage after Oklahoma ended..After the curtain closed..I held out my hand with my eyes closed and lots of girls ran to me and kiss me!!!..hahaha..so fun!!..but the kiss i wanted wasn't given then..It was while i was in the make-up room when she quietly came in to the room..she said that she wanted to give me a present..and she gave me a kiss on my right cheekk!!!!..i was so surprised i just stood there looking stupid..I still remembered her face as it approached mine..She was like.....so beautiful..but anyways she rejected me in the end..and it was the lowest point of my life..I've learned not to give too much..as you may not receive anything in return..leaving yourself heartbroken..

Harry Potter rulezzzz..

2005-07-17T08:43:00.000-07:00

Yelloo guysss..It's been a while since I last posted anything on this fraking blog..but here I am once again to share with my frens out there the events that have occured in my life..some of you might find it boring..some of you might find it interesting..But I hope that none of you will speak to me of these events that I will post if you see me outside..the things that I post here will not fit the image of what you guys think of me..Happy go lucky..crazy..weird..I have my bad times..I always have my bad times..I am actually a very unhappy guy..I hate the direction of which my life is heading..Damnn..I don't even know if I have a life..

Anyways today I just completed the sixth Harry Potter Book!!!!..I must say that the book gave me quite a shock..The ending was simply unpredictable..And extremely sad..I actually cried towards the end of the book..I took a record of18 hours to finish the book..My eyes are extremely strained right now..I love reading the books..It helps me to escape into another reality where I would like to live in..Love..Adventure..Magic..Thriller..Horror..I can't get enough of it..

Everytime I finish reading a comic or a book..This thought always crops up..Why am I living?..Is there something more to my life than just studies?..Is there?..And why am I so unlucky?..I am good with studies..But I think that I have an inferiority complex..I really want to be loved by someone will love and treasure me..I want to feel needed by someone who loves me..I need someone..Anyone......